This is now!

This is my not-so-daily catharsis.

Month: October, 2010

For No One

The day breaks, your mind aches
You find that all her words of kindness linger on
When she no longer needs you

She wakes up, she makes up
She takes her time and doesn’t feel she has to hurry
She no longer needs you

And in her eyes you see nothing
No sign of love behind her tears
Cried for no one
A love that should have lasted years

You want her, you need her
And yet you don’t believe her when she says her love is dead
You think she needs you

And in her eyes you see nothing
No sign of love behind the tears
Cried for no one
A love that should have lasted years

You stay home, she goes out
She says that long ago she knew someone but now he’s gone
She doesn’t need him

Your day breaks, your mind aches
There will be times when all the things she said will fill your head
You won’t forget her

And in her eyes you see nothing
No sign of love behind her tears
Cried for no one
A love that should have lasted years

Important Note: My love is NOT Dead, I’m just frightened.

This is how my defense mechanism works, my invisible readers.

Experiment

I will try new things.

Today i bought a locket, i will lock there a few things, i will make them become my secret, you will be there with me, and i will try new exciting things, who knows.

I will have to fight hard, this time i will be on my own. And i kind of like it. I have everything i need… or i will have, everything will have a signifcance. EVERY SINLE THING is going to become part of this process, yes witchcraft will be include this time, with totems and magical objects, amulets. Yes, i’ve got my amulets. I will paint my hair, i will mark my skin, the only thing i won’t do is to tear apart my skin.

There, i said it. I’m becoming me.

Take it All

This is what i will be singing in my B-day

I still want to make a costume party

And this is the way i will be dressed. Oh yeah!

You want my love
So take it all
You want to watch it all come off
Take it all
Come on now
Show me how
You take it all

L: Thank you.

G: What for?

L: Thank you for reminding me i’m not special. You don’t even see what you do, do you? Even the moments i think are ours, it’s just you… working to get what you want.

You want my glove
Are you enthralled?
You want to see it slip away and
Watch if fall
Oh we know
It’s your show
So take it all

 

G: What are you talking about? The screen test? Huh? You have to understand, this is nothing! This is what i do, I direct! It’s my job!

L: And this is our life! You think to create art is to forgive yourself in public… Fine! But don’t think i can forgive you in private, because I can’t… EVER.

 

So go ahead, take it all
You want my soul
Take it all
It’s time to leave
If I’m to live
Because I have no more
There’s nothing left to give

I watch you rise
I watch you fall
While I am standing with my back against the wall
Now it’s your turn to finally learn
You had the world
You had your fling
You wanted more than everything
You got your wish
You got your prize
Now take it right between your thighs
You grabbed for everything, my friend
But don’t you see that in the end
There will be nothing left of me

L: You’re just another appetite. And if you stop being greedy you die. You take everything… and i’m empty!…

L: You know, I’m glad I came, I can see now it’s hopeless.

[Everyone’s invited, Dear Invisible Readers]